Hi Ho...Hi Ho...

1st May 2012. May Day, in more ways than one!

 I had to go back to work!

Am I ready for this?

Will I get all emotional when faced with my work colleagues?

How will they react towards me after a whole year without me?

A myriad of questions like these buzzed inside my head as I drove to the office.

The car park was chocker - the first challenge - where to park! Walking along the path to the main entrance I met someone I recognised from the 6th floor. He said 'Hello' as if he had seen me only yesterday and carried on his way.

Once inside I was greeted by a skeleton staff within our team. I work in a large building on the 5th floor. All open plan with various departments all set out in a large square.

Everyone was very quiet and slowly came to me to say 'welcome back' and give me a hug. It was lovely to see my dear friend Sharon. She had cleaned and prepared my desk for me.  "Lets make a cuppa" she said with a warm smile, I knew she was making me feel safe. Before I knew it I was back in the saddle so to speak.

I'm doing a six week phased return. Part time for six weeks and working from home when I can.  My biggest problem is the Peripheral Neuropathy (nerve damage) that I have in my hands and feet. Ive found holding the telephone for too long and using the mouse is causing cramp like spasms in my hands. Ive asked the Occupational Health GP for a 'Green Badge' which is like a Blue Badge for disabled parking but only temporary. I can then park close to the office building as the path leading to the main entrance is a disused railway track and a conservation area for butterflies. Its a little uneven.

Ive almost completed my first week back. The trepidation I felt was to be expected but it has been ok so far. Its the initial step of walking in through the door that's the hardest part. The next challenge will be attending the many meetings that my day usually consists of and trying to stay awake!